It's like a disease....

We live in a consumer driven culture. I know this. It sort of disgusts me a lot of time yet that doesn't see to stop me from wanting to shop it up. It is a problem and has been so on and off for some time. I don't know if it the fact that I am allowing myself to become just another docile sheep with a credit card in the monster Capitalist System or that I have been programed to want to BUY BUY BUY BUY or that I do such a bad job of stopping myself most of the time that bothers me most. Where is my self control? Am I really going to let these marketing fucks manipulate me into buying crap I don't need so that some devil corporation can rake in a little more cash? I realize I am being a bit mellow dramatic and over simplifying things. I do realize that my little excursions support the local economy and help provide needed jobs to people in my community. It still makes me sick that I now have a baby son but I still spend my money on garbage from Target and have practically no savings to speak of as a result. But who's fault is that really?

Homeward Bound and Back Again

"We might as well have gone to Panama," was my husband's brief and perfect summary of our latest trip to the Midwest to visit my family.  It was hot and humid (90 degrees and 100 percent humidity - or at least it felt that way) and the mosquitoes were HUGE.  We also ate a lot of food that we don't normally have at home - tons of red meat and starches which is just what you want when it is too hot to move.  Thank God for air conditioning, chilled white wine and Pepto.

Planting Seeds

Yesterday I planted seeds for the first time in my life. I mean this in the most literal sense as I have planted an abundance of figurative seeds over the past year. They seem to be growing..... These figurative seeds have been marriage, home and family. The literal seeds were: chamomile, bergamont and holly hox. I married a beekeeper farmer last July and have been recently quite pleased to discover that I am really starting to get into this whole gardening thing. I have always had many houseplants that I have mostly managed to keep alive. I have planted pots with flowers for the minimal 'outside' areas I have had during my many years of apartment living (with very sad results). I never tried to grow anything I could actually eat and never started with the seeds of anything ever. Really, the mind boggles when you hold these minuscule things in the palm of your hand. I look forward to watching them grow....